She asked me why i think they didn't let me go...

... I blamed it all on them.

Today i went to my old youth ministers house to just chat. I ended up hearing exactly what i didn't want to hear. I know that sometimes people can misunderstand you, and i know that sometimes you hear things differently than they really are.... but I'm sick of people telling me that it was all a misunderstanding. It wasn't... i understood exactly what was happening, and what people were saying to me. I understood it all. For the last time people... I am not running away from you, i am running to something better.

Mayfair is one of the best places in the world. The people there are kind and generous, and you can tell they really love you. Central is an amazing church, with amazing people. They are both wonderful churches. But, when i pull into Centrals parking lot... I feel sick to my stomach. I know what has happened there, and i know that it isn't the right place for me. I have said "sorry" to everyone i had to. I have fixed all the bad things that happened. I did not run. I left. There is a huge difference. I am not afraid of that place, or those people. I just have experienced a place that is better for me. Why would i stay at a place where i felt uncomfortable? Mayfair is a better place for me. Hands down. I just wish people would support me in this. I wish the people at central would encourage me in my faith, not beg for me to come back to their church. I mean honestly... does it matter where i go to church at? NO! They should be glad that I am even going to church.

I love Jesus... and Jesus loves me. And my relationship with God was being hurt at central... because i wasn't worshiping him... I was too busy being worried. I feel so free at Mayfair. I feel so close to God.


Jane

Prayer Requests
Keep praying for Reggie
Keep praying for Casey and Chris
Pray for my missionary friends in Belgium
Pray for my brother because he just started his job as an EMT