How do you pack for a new adventure?

So on Friday I am leaving for Winterfest with Mayfair. I'll admit... I'm nervous. I'm not use to Mayfair yet, but i love it. I'm excited and worried at the same time. What if its different? Its a trip with people that I'm not super close to. I mean i have my 4 friends, Jamie, Britney, Louisa, and Rieder.... but that's about it. I just don't want to be left out. I'm so use to being in a youth group with people that know me and my faith. I have to start all over on this new spiritual adventure.... but i know god has something awesome in store for me. This whole changing church thing has been a great yet stressful experience. I am so glad to have Mayfair, but i still miss my good friends at Central. I just can't be at a place that doesn't believe in what I can accomplish. Central wasn't uplifting my faith.... Mayfair is. I know this is what God wants for me... and i know its the best thing for me. I mean... I finally know my way around that building, I can't leave it. Honestly, I don't think i will ever be able to go back to Central as a member. You know... I didn't get one call when i left... not one. I felt like I was un-wanted. There is a point when you have to decide what is best for your relationship with God... and at Central I wasn't worshiping God anymore, I was worrying. At Mayfair I feel free to worship, and that is an amazing feeling.


So today was a pretty sad day. It's hard walking down the halls and seeing people with their bears and chocolate. It's been a while since i have had a valentine. I mean, I love being single... don't get me wrong. Freedom is nice. But for once... I would like to get a bear, or chocolates... or even better roses. I think I'm ready for a relationship... but I'm not sure who. Relationships are super serious things to me... I don't play around. Ugh... I wish it would be Saint Patricks day already. I'm sick of this love junk.

Jane